Not sure if I should wait for him any longer...

I know it's early and I said I'd wait until September, but I'm getting impatient. I guess that's not really love is it? I want to mature, but it's hard to break out of this pattern, of thinking this way---of mistaking my wants for needs. God has blessed me with so many friends and cool things to keep me busy. It's probably so that I'll be too distracted to yell at him, or ruin our relationship, which is usually what happens when I feel let down. I act like a child and that's not acceptable anymore. I am, hereby, setting him free. To find his own course in life. To find love. Wherever God takes him. I love him and I want him to be happy. This is just a rough time...but I'll get through it!