In limbo

I really do not like not being in control. I'm waiting for my grad school recommendations to come in and I still haven't heard from this one girl who said she'd do it. What the frick? I assume that if you'd want to write a letter on someone's behalf, you'd also take their calls and not send them straight to voicemail. I only called once and emailed once to follow up. I don't get it at all. She's waiting until the last minute even though I told her I wanted to get my application in early. Strange. At this point, I'm feeling like maybe I should ask someone else. Except, her name is still on my application as one of my recommenders. I'm afraid to call her again, for fear that something is going on that I don't want to know about. I'm not really sure why I trusted her in the first place. She is part of the reason I got fired. I thought it was by accident, now I'm beginning to wonder. That job turns everyone into the devil. Ugh! Now what?